Started today crying, which honestly isn't new for this week. Put on the Savage x Fenty Fashion Show because I love Rihanna and everything she creates, but managed to cry through that as well. Told myself I wasn't going to even edit the audio I had to publish the podcast because I was feeling too shitty. It's a common excuse I give myself.
I debated getting more of my poetry book collections into order, because if I'm already crying I won't start crying about other old shit I wrote about. Grabbed my laptop and turned on Rick and Morty. It's been almost two years now of gaging just how depressed I really am by the amount of Rick and Morty I watch consecutively. When I get through all the seasons and restart it's not typically a good time for me, but also it does help with background noise when I'm attempting to do something else, i.e. write, edit audio, or anything else that is hard to focus on while my brain is racing around.
Audio editting begins; an hour later all that needs to be done is getting the intro, outro, and episode all into one file to upload. And then I started crying again because all the editing I'd done audio wise vanished from the app I use and saved as just 58 minutes of white noise. I tried a couple different ways to retrieve the work I had done so I wouldn't have to restart the process all over to no avail. I knew I wouldn't have enough time to edit it (since the save on the program did nothing) before it'd be time to pick up my daughter from school, so I had myself a little bit of a pity party instead of making more headway.
But I already made it through the challenging part, which is usually more hearing my own voice and thinking I sound stupid than anything else. I just truly hate doing things I've already done before and while feeling shitty it sent me on a baby spiral.
She gets herself out of it all the time though, so I'm here ready to start this post, then read two chapters of Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone with my daughter when she's out of school, and hopefully go back and edit everything I just did before this. 😅
This is the version of Succubus Blues I own and am reading from.
Am I in sweats? Absolutely. Will I change to pick up my child? Absolutely not. Does this embarrass her? She hasn't yet said so, but give her 5 years and I'm sure she'll get there.
This is the autograph from Richelle Mead for this book. I can't remember if it's mentioned in the first post or not, but I went to Richelle Mead signing pretty regularly when I was available for them; the podcast for sure mentions it, and if I haven't already posted about it, I can definitely speak more on it. For now, though, I'll just say that not all are personalized (though most are) and no matter how many times I came with a pile of books for Richelle to sign she was always so sweet and thrilled to sign my pile (typically spread between myself and my younger sister, who I forced to come with me). Anywhooooo for Succubus Blues this is what we have.
First chapter is mostly me just editing out rereading of sentences I couldn't get out correctly the first time. Man, oh, man did I have a hate/hate relationship with the word "proprietary" in chapter 1. In fact, I think the end of my fighting with that word has to stay in because otherwise you just go from a normal speaking voice to me yelling PROPRIETARY in my own frustration with my mouth. I know there's another word in there that I did that too, but proprietary stuck out more in my memory.
**While doing the second round of editing realized I was fighting so hard to get out proprietary and the word that's actually written is PROPRIETY 🤦🏼♀️ Currently sitting in full embarrassment before the editing continues.**
Second chapter, I'm basically just editing out me drinking water and coughing, so overall I'm hoping my memory serves correctly on the amount of editing needing to be done and I can withstand hearing myself reading/talking for another hour before I can delve into the second episode, which has chapters 3 and 4.
Chapter 1 introduces us to Georgina, our succubus story teller, her imp friend Hugh, and Duane, a more despicable type of vampire. We see how even with the power to alter her appearance at will, Georgina isn't willing to part with some more mortal aspects of life, like a nice pair of shoes. Georgina refers to herself as jaded, which I think is very interesting take and maybe a common theme amongst immortal being authors. When you've lived for such a long time, I'd imagine it'd be hard not to be. Then near the end of the chapter we meet Georgina's cat, Aubrey, and the archdemon of her area, Jerome. I probably am not meant to love Jerome quite as much as I do, but I don't think Richelle would fault me for it.
Chapter 2 we learn Georgina works at a bookstore for her "day job" if you will and we meet some of her coworkers, Doug and Bruce to be more specific. I love most that Doug (and Bruce also) has never given up his grunge era, which is all too true with a lot of Seattlites. The hold Kurt Cobain had (and still has even in death) on Washingtonians was a tight one, that spans across generations. I guess it's chapter 1 when we learn about Georgina's love for author Seth Mortenson, but we see a little more of that as she prepares for his book signing that is teased a few times across the second chapter. Also we find out about Georgina's caffeinated beverage of choice: white chocolate mochas.
Also, demonesses are classy; not the horned, winged, leather, and whips that first comes to mind if you ever watched an anime in your life. My succubi infatuation might have started with Jennifer's Body, but it really flourished with Georgina!
Until next time...
You're pretty; I love you! Okay byeeeeeeeee!
Kaylee
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